Stop This Train

See, once in a while when it's good, it'll feel like it should

And they're all still around and you're still safe and sound

And you don't miss a thing 'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark

Urburpandascape.

Contemplating on going to Urbanscapes. Feel like I'd be missing out so much if I don't. I mean, come on. There's Yuna and The Trees and The Wild and Narmi and Sigur Ros and The White Shoes and The Couple Company and The Impatient Sisters and aaa, need I say more? Plus somebody's selling two Weekend Passes at RM150 each. That's a bargain, I guess, since now Urbanscapes is selling their Pre-sale Weekend Passes at RM187.

Okay I'm gonna leave it at that. Much too lazy to put up other videos. But yeah;

FEEL THE AWESOMENESS OF THESE PEOPLE. 

Somebody take me there please. 

White lies.

Staring at the ceiling fan blankly.
Thinking.
Thinking.
Thinking.

Thinking.

I saw you few days back, at a camera shop.

When I thought I've thrown out every single thing that has you init. Probably somebody forgot to empty the Recycle Bin in my brain. I saw you, and it was as if every trash was restored back to it's folder.

And everything starts coming back to me.
Day 1 to 700 whatever day.

So now tell me, how do you expect me to not have all this rage.

Frankly, I'm tired. Tired of being angry. Tired of being sad. Tired of being unhappy.
I deserve to be happy.

Skyfall

This is the end

Hold your breath and count to ten

Feel the earth move and then

Hear my heart burst again.

Sabay!

Everyone has that something that they like to do the most. For me I don't really know what I like, I'm sorta indecisive(is that even the right word to describe me? hmm) but I do love art and craft and business whatever thingamajig. But of course you don't always get to do what you love the most for a living. If you do, then you are one lucky dude!

I have always complaint to my housemates how I loathe engineering, how it has never been an interest of mine etc etc. I told them after I'm done with engineering I'm gonna proceed doing a double degree, taking a course that is related to the things I would enjoy doing. And my housemates being all strictly parently-ish told me that I shouldn't be doing that. Of what I could recall from yesterday's conversation was ;

1. "Whose gonna pay the loan?"
2. "I thought you like environmental engineering?"
3. "You always komplen komplen itu susah ini susah. You haven't try your best yet you wanna complain some more."
4. "Try working first. Kalau rasa tak boleh pegi jauh, then you do a double degree laa. But seriously who's gonna pay the loanss ha?"
5. "Working as an engineer is not the same as studying to be an engineer. Who knows it might be a lot of fun during the working days later."

I highly doubt that, but everything they said got me thinking of a kinda clever saying. (Narcissist much? Heh heh. But seriously.)

"You wouldn't know you're good at something, unless you try doing your best. If you still suck at it, then most probably you're not good at it after all. But of course with much effort, sooner or later you'll be good at it anyway.

Point is, if you never try then you'll never know. "

Which again had me thinking, I am kinda lazy at studying which of course resulting in me getting pretty lousy grades. Today, for the first time evah, I studied hard for a Geotech test. (Well not so hard after all because I only started studying this morning and the exam was tonight at 8pm.) And I kinda like the feeling of it. Feeling a little bit clever than the usual. Haha. But seriously, I had a thought that I might actually enjoy doing this engineering course after all.

In the end, I decided that I'm gonna try giving my best shot for this civil-whatevertheclevershiznit-engineering thing.

(dah tahun akhir baru nak cakap gini? *facepalm*)

It's sokayy, it's soraiit, kamon baby fight fight fight! \o/


Foot note:
For those yang rasa macam pemalas sangat, amalkan baca doa ni (doa para nabi);

And an additional doa, untuk senang process ilmu dan dipermudahkan urusan (Surah Taha ayat 25-28);